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I Want to Ooze

I want to be one of those people that when you see them,
or talk to them, or listen to them —
the Spirit of God just oozes out of them.

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I was praying about some things recently, and in the middle of that prayer, God started revealing a new truth to me about myself.

I struggle with vanity.

Oh, for sure. Case in point:

Exhibit One

I am completely obsessed with losing ten pounds, and have been for approximately ten years. Unfortunately I love food too much, and so every time I lose five pounds, I reward myself by immediately gaining five pounds back. It is an extremely efficient system.

Exhibit Two

I am extremely irritated when people do not notice some big accomplishment I have worked hard for. I suspect most people feel this way, but here is the thing — it is actually a form of vanity. We should want people to see God through our accomplishments, not ourselves.

Exhibit Three

The minute this realization came to me, I started writing this blog post — because I want everyone to be so amazed at how amazing I am that I am honest enough to admit I struggle with vanity. I know. I know. I have some serious issues.

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But for real. I am genuinely, sincerely interested in growing in love with Christ. I am truly exhausted by all the noise and clutter of this world, and I am ready to let go of the stupid stuff.

(I say all that while holding tightly to all my gadgets, accessories, and La La Land.)

I want to be one of those people who really shines with the Holy Spirit.
One of those people that after you speak with them,
you feel lighter and more joyful.
One of those people who does not care what the world thinks —
only what God thinks.

That is the person I want to become.

I am going to have to spend some more time praying about this. I can already tell it is going to take a very long time to make even an inch of progress. But I suppose acknowledging the problem is where it starts.

I will get back to you on this.

Pray for me. I will pray for you. 🙏

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